Over these last couple weeks I have had a lot of opportunities to makes some changes in my life that have caused me to really reflect on where my life is right now and where it is going. The question that continues to come to mind, in ten years from now, if my life continues down the path that it is going will I be satisfied with where I am and what I did? Will I have any regrets or things that I left undone? Did I learn all that I needed too from each point in my life? While ultimately the Lord knows exactly what each of us need to learn I have gained a deeper understanding of the scripture phrase of being an agent. During our time of earth we are faced with decisions every day, big and small, some that require the best of us and some that are seemingly unimportant. A lot of these decisions are choices between good and good. Those ones are honestly some of the hardest one to make, because each would bring us joy but the uncertainty can cause a lot of stress.
A few weeks ago I was faced with one of these questions that both options were so good but would bring two different results into my life, very separate learning opportunities. One provided an opportunity for personal growth in my life that had been found in my mission. The stretching, pulling, discomfort kind of growth, while the other provided for options of developing talents that were already there. It would have still been a learning experience for me but maybe not in the same way that the other was going to be. I will be honest it caused a lot of stress and blood and tears in deciding. I spent a lot of time of my knees and the only answer that seemed to come was one of "its up too you." During that time the words of my mission president, President Taylor, came to mind. He spent a portion of our mission focusing on vision, and developing a vision for those that we were teaching. The whole idea was when we started teaching someone new we needed to envision them in white, at the temple receiving the fullness of joy the temple can bring. He would say, "begin with the end in mind." At this point I realized that I didn't have a vision for my life, where I saw my self in the end, or tens years down the road. I thought of the specific attributes that I wanted to develop and what I needed to do in order to get there. Suddenly my decision became clear which job I should take.Whats your vision for your life? Can you look down the road and honestly say that you are on a path that leads to that vision or desired goal? I know that when we take the time to determine our goals and develop a vision that our lives will become more pointed. We will begin to live in a way that is meaningful and we will become agents unto ourselves like the Lord invites us to do. To choose for ourselves what path we would like to take. I also know that He loves us enough to never let us go down path that will not ultimately lead us to ultimate joy. By no means am I say that we shouldn't ask him for direction, thats what he is there for, he can see the whole picture so it is so important that we do council with him, but we can also know that there is power in decisions. Choosing and sticking with it through thick and thin. Take the time to develop a vision for your life, and identify the steps it is going to take to get there, then don't look back. Joy is found in the journey!!
